The Forgotten Past

 Damn... I thought I done all the reflections I need But I got a new one Fresh perspectives I guess Of all the admirations and praises that I get The reason I got burdened Is yes, I felt it was conditional Because I never really felt someone ever be proud of me Not of my achievements But me.  That hits hard

 Today I weeped again For a wound I thought healed Started to bleed again It's not the blood that I weep over Or the staring eyes It's the pain deep in the bones That felt familiar but foreign How I wish I don't weep But how do I deny  A part of me? Today I bled

 I feel that I am pressed by time To do a million things To catch up to another thousand I feel that I am chased But when I turned There is only my shadow I feel that I am tensed Never ever be able to relax to have a drink and peace of mind I feel that I am pressed by time not for time

 I thought I was doing well But its cold claws came back Gripping me with its familiar chill And I still cant my scream I thought I saw glimpses of you But it must have been forgotten A hot summer that passed so quickly Y,Y

 The year ahead I have just a simple wish To begin enjoying again the small things in life The holidays, birthdays, trips and wins To look forward to it all But not worrying about the future I want to celebrate and enjoy and live in the present moment To the year ahead. 

 

 To look at the world again through a different lens To realize again we are not what we perceive All my life has been chasing on an unending race To realize we are the only runner Finally, I have a state of mind Peace and tranquility To let go of my external goals And listen to my heart