Special

To Always believe that I am unlovable

To Realize my own Inferiority

To see with Envy as others were celebrated

While I sat alone, accommodating

What is mean like to mean something special to others

Am I capable of such feelings

The question would not be 

If I'm loved by people

But rather

If I can feel love. 


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