3 weeks in.
“It’s just a dream, it’s just a dream. You will wake up any second now.” I thought to myself. 3 weeks into college and I still could not believe it. That thought kept repeating itself in my mind like a broken cassette, preventing me from enjoying this moment. The moment I have been dreaming about for months. Meeting new people, studying subjects that interest me and learning new cultures are among the things that I want to do in college. However, every day, hours and class that I was in felt like a dream and a vacation.
It feels weird not going to the same school that you have been going to for 5 years. It feels weird that you still wake up at the same time but going in the opposite direction. It feels weird doing these familiar things but with different friends. It feels weird not going to the same school as the girl that kept your heart for 5 years. You need time to get used to the fact that her smile is the only thing that you morning. You miss the butterflies she unconsciously put into your stomach whenever she talks to you because every conversation you have now is colorless compared to her.
Not forgetting the four friends you left behind. There’s the smart one, the crazy one, the one you meme with and the handsome one. They are the friends that had your back but now seem far away. They are the friends you do project with but now unreachable. They are the friends you curse together but now look like stranger. It just is weird not having them around you 5 days a week and not being able to be yourself without them because they are a part of you. They were the reason high school was bearable with you and your group of friends constantly being the loudest in class or skipping classes together. But now, you realize all that is gone and you have to start all over again.
Nothing stopped me from thinking that I am in the right place but wrong time. This college is everything I ever dreamt of but it seemed off. The water in the fountain sprinkles differently. The lights are a little too dim and the temperature a little too dim. Now, I finally understand when she said, ”You are the right person but at a wrong time. Maybe, just maybe I shall wake up.
It feels weird not going to the same school that you have been going to for 5 years. It feels weird that you still wake up at the same time but going in the opposite direction. It feels weird doing these familiar things but with different friends. It feels weird not going to the same school as the girl that kept your heart for 5 years. You need time to get used to the fact that her smile is the only thing that you morning. You miss the butterflies she unconsciously put into your stomach whenever she talks to you because every conversation you have now is colorless compared to her.
Not forgetting the four friends you left behind. There’s the smart one, the crazy one, the one you meme with and the handsome one. They are the friends that had your back but now seem far away. They are the friends you do project with but now unreachable. They are the friends you curse together but now look like stranger. It just is weird not having them around you 5 days a week and not being able to be yourself without them because they are a part of you. They were the reason high school was bearable with you and your group of friends constantly being the loudest in class or skipping classes together. But now, you realize all that is gone and you have to start all over again.
Nothing stopped me from thinking that I am in the right place but wrong time. This college is everything I ever dreamt of but it seemed off. The water in the fountain sprinkles differently. The lights are a little too dim and the temperature a little too dim. Now, I finally understand when she said, ”You are the right person but at a wrong time. Maybe, just maybe I shall wake up.
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