The Forgotten Past

One lazy afternoon, I sat down and realized I am only 5 months or so away from graduation and I cannot decide what to feel. Do I feel sad or do I feel happy? What is graduation anyway? I remember at the start of my final school year, I walked into school realizing I am a senior now and that thought somehow does not intrigue me even though there was so much hype being a senior.             A little more than 4 years ago, I was in school looking at my crush and wondering how long would I like this girl for. At that time, we liked to prank each other by untying his or her shoelaces when one is not looking. I imagined myself playing this prank on her in our senior year. I did ask myself how long will these crushes last and will I ever remember this memory. Turns out I do. However it is not a sweet one. I had a crush on her for 2 or 3 years and then I ignored her for the rest of the school years. It was silly thinking back because ...

Why is it that you have no emotion? How do you keep yourself in motion? What do you do to keep living life? Why do you start talking with the cuts from your knife? You say you do not feel joy Yet you play like a toy You say everything is a trick Yet you never get pricked You say you do not feel sorrow Yet you act like there is no tomorrow You say you do not fear tears Yet you never once shed one You say you do not feel pain Yet your wrists have blood stains You told me to not worry Yet you never told me your story Why is it that you have no emotion? How do you keep yourself in motion? What do you do to keep living life? Why do you start talking with the cuts from your knife?

When tears don't come And words don't tell The loneliness in you Take a metal pen To write stories On your wrist Watch red beads drip And let relief sweep away The pain of yesterday As you draw another line To complete your story Let darkness engulf you When tears don't come And words don tell

               Are you always the friend that never got called to a gathering? Are you the friend that have to walk behind when the walkway is not wide enough? Are you the one that got belittle by each and every of the member in the gang and no one is there to stand up for you so you just have to laugh along. Are your messages got ignored in the Whatsapp group chat? Do any of your friends ever listen to your stories, your ideas or even your pain? Can you recount the times your friends actually sat with you during recess? No? You must be a lucky person. Now, relax and let me tell you the story of a friend that doesn’t have any friend.                 His name was Tre Lee. He was a happy boy. Born in Malaysia, his family together with him moved to Australia when he was 2 so that his father could work in his new company. Every day, his father makes sure Tre does not forge...

Him I’m halfway to the bathroom when my alarm started ringing. I left it ringing because I'm too lazy to walk back and turn it off. Another day of waking early for school in where I'm going to do nothing. I turned on the bathroom light and tried to compromise with myself on how shit this day going to be.                 I almost forgot to introduce myself. My name is Way, going to be 16 this July and hell, my life is great. Being an alpha male when around my friends bring extra confidence in you and everyone just wants to know you. Having girls to ask for your number or boys to ask you to join their football team is almost a daily routine. Of course I play hard to get. So far, I have been in no relationship cause no girl is up to my standard. But, you know how puberty works. Here and then, I go gaga over celebrities.               ...

                Have you ever fought a war? To be more exact/ have you ever waged war against your own brain. Sounds crazy? Had your brain went against you so much that you wanted to unleash your inner demon?                  Have you ever been so passionate about something but the next day the feeling faded away with the tears of yesterday? Have you ever spaced out while doing something? Have you tried concentrating so hard on it but ten you realized you tried so hard on concentrating you aren’t even doing what you are supposed to do. Have you ever went on a holiday and when you return you forgot everything about the trip and even forgotten what your house look like.                 Well, here my friend is my encounter with brain fog. Let me start ...

              Most people thinks that greed is a bad thing and it usually means bad news. There's one Bahasa Melayu quote that goes, "Orang yang tamak selalu rugi." It's translation means the greedy people will always have to deal with losses. But, greed can be and is an ability that most people don't know. Find out why a simple thing as trying to beat your highscore in a game is an act of greed and how beneficial it can be in the next post. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------  I might be out for a little while as I'm preparing myself for the upcoming exam which starts next week (July 1) till mid-october. So, forgive me if i did not post here regularly. Meanwhile, check out The Forgotten Past page and give us a thumbs up https://www.facebook.com/azelfandsteven?ref=br_tf Or add me as a friend here https://www.facebook.com/wei.wah.5